This is I am Blue Video. It does not give you the real experience of her One woman performance, but it is better than not seeing Blue at all
I got a forwarded list from my sister. 45 lessons in life. I rarely look at those because I feel like I read them all. Light your candles, you don’t want to die without using them, blah blah blah.
This was a new one:
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
I thought that in this stage in life, I did not care what people thought of me. When I started doing this writing, I became terrified. Will they think I am stupid because I spelled stuff wrong or have bad grammar? Will they think, silly Olia dreaming of being a writer. She has not even read Dostoevsky (something that I am actively ashamed of). If I list all my fears, I quickly find that it is not what they think that hurts. It is what I think that hurts. Or what I think, they think. I can not control what “they” think about me. Who are they anyway. But my assumptions are more severe than my worst critic. What if I do this and they think that. The truth is what if I do this and I think this.
When I started my jewelry business, a lot of people had a lot to say. My parents were worried. I was even embarrassed to show my messy beginner jewelry to my friends. One day, a friend came to visit and I told her that I wanted to be a jewelry designer. She said it would a nice hobby but do I really think that I can make a living? This was the echoing words of my parents. A nice hobby. How can anyone but you know what your career or hobby should be.
My mom told me if I want to be a writer I should analyze people and learn their stories. I said, I do not want to write about them, I want to write about me. When I got off the phone, I realized how selfish that sounded. How narcissistic I have become. All these bloggers retelling their every experience and now I am joining the masses. And I want to be special too.
What other people think of you is none of your business, can be reversed. To judge other people is none of my business. How can a writer know what someone else is feeling? They can’t. All they know is how they feel in all of life’s situation.
Shema Israel Adoni Aloheinu, Adoni Ahad. The most important prayer in Jewish religion. I am not trying to teach religion, it is just a concept that I find interesting. Hear Oh Israel, Hashem our God, Hashem is One. It is saying that God is One. So simple, why is that important. Is Judaism just reclaiming and proclaiming itself over and over as the first monotheistic religion. Blah, boring. Who cares about that. This is a prayer you say in the morning, in the afternoon and in the evening. This is the prayer you say before you die. This is the prayer that was murmured by the Jews in the gas chambers as their final words. This is the prayer I was singing drunk one night in College when I thought I was dying because the room was spinning. Is it really important that there is only One God. Not to me. It is obvious. I learned more about the Shema. God is just the description of Everything. If God is omnipotent and omnipresent, he is all-encompassing. We are in that equation. By being here, we are just parts of One big whole that is God or Universe or whatever you want to call it. The words do not matter. Three times a day and before we die we are supposed to remind ourselves that we are all ONE. There is no feeling that each one of us is not collectively experiencing.
The feeling of being alone is an illusion. Every feeling is Universal. So if I am not myself because I am afraid of what other people think of me then I just forgot that we are all One. If we are One what other’s think of me is what I think of me. I know that is not a new concept. But here is my mathematically unsound proof.
infinity = 1
Infinity is too large to grasp, it takes away your power. Shema give it back. All = One
If All = One, One = All. Like Three Musketeers. What if the World’s motto was All for One and One for All?
If I am One and I follow my path, I am doing that for All. Be your true One for All. It is none of your business what other people think of you. It is your business what you think of yourself.
Deep thoughts, by Olia Rights