Today is my official second day of college. I did my morning pages. They revealed a lot. I am confused about my college. I do not know what it is yet. I made a schedule that is not working. I will be changing my curriculum. I made classes that I do not want to go to. Like drawing, just not feeling it. I made requirements, I cannot maintain. Dancing, I have not had energy after my cold. I am disappointing myself and you but I have not danced in 5 days. I have to cut down to three times a week. It will take time to figure out a system.
Recently I bought three books on Feng Shui. I want to learn Feng Shui because my husband and I are renovating our first home. I have read one short book on Feng Shui years ago. It is faint in my mind. For a while used the concepts. I made intentions, I moved furniture, I cleared clutter, I organized, I placed objects to symbolize things I wanted to manifest in my life, it worked every time. Creating energy in my outer spaces consciously allowed my mind to have space. I need more now. We will be moving walls soon. I want those walls to move consciously.
I was due to Draw 10:15-11:15 am but instead I picked up my Feng Shui A Practical Guide for Architects and Designers. I am on page 11 and already I highly recommend this book (especially to you, Lisa). It is grounded and smart. A synchronicity happened on the second page. The Feng Shui author started talking about Left and Right brain. That sounded familiar, since my drawing text-book was Drawing with the Right Side of the Brain, I flipped the page and there it was, a reference to the Author of Drawing on the Right side of the brain by Betty Edwards, the very book I was supposed to study in my canceled drawing class. It turns out she also has a book on Feng Shui. This was a synchronicity not to be ignored. It said, switching my curriculum is ok. I am attracted to the same concepts, no matter what book I pick up. Or they are attracted to me.
As I sat reading my book this morning, I was asking myself, what is it about Feng Shui that I love so much. Why am I drawn to this subject. The answer came quickly as I read the fundamentals. Feng shui is a healing art. It is seemingly about arranging space and furniture and cleaning your room but that is like saying yoga is about having a nice body. If therapy works from inside out, Feng Shui works from outside in. I can look at my environment and figure out my inner world.
Somewhat consciously, my husband and I created the space around ourselves in our current apartment. In our creation of our first real home I want to be as conscious as I am in undertaking any new project going forward. I want to know that every bit of energy I exert is for my own highest good and therefore for the highest good of everyone around me. I want my home to be a sanctuary.
We went to see a renovation of this couple’s house in our neighborhood. The wife said that she wanted her home to be a sanctuary. I cringed a little bit. It sounded pompous to me to have such high aspiration. But then I thought about it. A sanctuary just means a place that is safe and sacred to you. I am not about to put the Virgin Mary statue inside our house but I will be putting objects far more sacred to me, like Isaiah’s crib.
My first semester is to clear myself from inside out AND from outside in.